Personalities and Blogging.

I don't know if you are at all interested in personalities, but I am.

I'm a Sanguine/Melancholy.

The sanguine in me is the people person..the person that never really meets any strangers.

It's the part of me that flutters all around a social gathering trying to take in as many conversations as possible.

It's the part of me that loves to talk about such important things as fashion, decorating and recipes.

The melancholy in me is the structured, organized, "everything has a place" part of me.

It's also the part of me that loves to analyze and connect the dots in my life.

It's the part of me that isn't satisfied with only fluttering around the social gathering talking to people.

..those conversations need to be fairly deep and meaningful.

I want to know the stories that make up peoples' lives.

There are all sorts of tests that you can take to figure out your specific personality traits and the strengths and weaknesses that go with them.

One of the tests that I've taken is the DISC test.

On it, I am an IC.

"I" representing the sanguine and "C" representing the melancholy.

Here are some key words that go with the "I"....

Enthusiastic. Trusting. Optimistic. Persuasive. Talkative. Impulsive. Emotional 

Yep.  totally me.

And, here are some words that go with the "C"....

Accurate. analytical. Conscientious. careful. Fact-finder. precise. High standards. systematic.

Also.  totally me.

I thought a lot about blogging during the past four weeks.

Do I keep it up or toss it to the side.

Understanding the ins and outs of my personality help me to understand why it's such a struggle for me.

I've said before that I started blogging because I needed a creative outlet.

It's true, I did.

But, really, I just needed an outlet, period.

When I started this blog, we were new to homeschooling, so we were getting to know our community.

I felt like I was losing my voice with the outside world a little bit.

That's why I started this blog.

It gave me a way to store beautiful and inspiring pictures and it gave me a place to write.

I've met some of the most kind people.

At times, it feels totally normal to be relating and communicating with strangers all over the world,

and at other times, it feels absolutely bizarre.

The truth is, I didn't have a huge community here to pour my time into when I started this blog,

but now I do.

We have several families that we homeschool with that have become dear friends in the past 9 months.

Our kids are very connected, and so are we.

It feels weird to pour time into blogging when I have real life relationships right in front of me.

Does anyone else ever struggle with this?

The sanguine in me wants to connect with as many people in the world that I can connect with,

but the melancholy in me knows that there's no way to maintain genuine depth with a multitude of people.

The sanguine in me wants to post every picture I can find that brings inspiration,

and the melancholy in me wants to write and write and write about everything that moves me in the least.

Some of these thoughts have brought up questions in my little melancholy mind.

You know...because I need one more thing to analyze.  

{That's how melancholy's roll}

Here are the things about blogging that have me conflicted.

*leaving comments

*responding to every comment

*having the follower gadget on my sidebar

*having a blog list on my sidebar

I don't know about you, but it all kind of feels like high school all over again.

Don't get me wrong, I loved most parts of high school,

but the only way I'd go back is if I could do things differently.

Very differently.

I love leaving comments and connecting with other bloggers, 

but not when it starts to feel like I'm running for homecoming queen again.

Make sense to anyone but me?

So, I've taken my blog list off the sidebar and I've removed the followers gadget.

And, it feels good.

 And, just in case you're curious about what the photo has to do with this post....
The sanguine part of me loved the vibrant colors that screamed in the photo,
and the melancholy part of me loved the barns in the background, cause they remind me of home.